When I hear someone talking as they walk down my street, I usually feel alarmed that they may be talking about me. I hear snatches of conversation and think, “Oh no, what are they saying?” I do not mean to be so self-absorbed, at least that’s how I feel I am being, but it just seems that way. It really is difficult when I make a quick trip to Barnes and Noble or Hobby Lobby and hear someone laughing. I just look at myself and what I am wearing and consider what is so damn funny. I feel people’s eyes on me all the time and wonder what they must think and then make things up accordingly. “She is fat and ugly.” “She is dressed like a freak.” I know it’s irrational but still I can not stop the progression of negative thoughts. I rather enjoy being a little plump. I feel like I am more invisible. “Okay, if I just don’t make eye contact and try not to act unnatural then maybe no one will see me and everything will be okay” It will be okay, won’t it?